Building a Bridge

I always witness my mama and papa quarrel to the extent of having physical injuries on the part of my mama and seldom to my papa. There was one time my papa punched my mama that caused separation between my two parents. Life is a hell for me without the presence of both. I was extremely affected at those time. I was angry to my papa why he did those to mama. But I realized that I had no right to blame anyone. I am only 11 years old and was innocent about the situation. I didn't even know the cause of misunderstanding. I just kept my mouth shot and continued life despite everything.There in the house, life was cold and useless. I didn't want to eat nor wanted to exist. I had no one to lay my problems because my brothers and sisters were busy in their life as if nothing happened and I didn't want to open it to my friends. I was alone carrying the burden on my own. One time I talked to mama if there's a chance to go back to papa and talked to papa if there's a chance to be with mama for the sake of us, their children. there was no positive response. Didn't know if what am I doing can worsen the situation or can cause again war between the two important warriors in my life. Call me selfish and self-centered. Don't care. All I wanted those time was to build again our broken dreams as one happy family. I was so damned obsessed to bridge the gap and frantically looking for a plan to do it. I'm in a hurry to do it and I realized things cannot be solved quickly as I wanted. It took almost two months to settle the problem. My mama and papa talked privately about their condition and saw the bad effects especially on my part about their separation. For the sake of me and my brothers and sisters, they came up with the solution to build again our family. I was so happy being the youngest at those time. It was the happiest moment in my life, to see my family together again, happy and intact and alive.

bridging the the gap between my parents is I considered as the biggest role I performed in life and will never be tired to perform again if the same situation happen. God is so great. He let me to experience it in order for me to value family, the source of my strength and courage to adapt and accept and fight the ups and downs in life. Many realizations I learned from the past and will always be thankful to God and family for making me strong and positive thinker despite what happened . ....Hope to impart lesson to the reader... Thank you....

The Mysterios Mountain

While reading, I was given the appropriate view of the mountain, Mt. Apo. Its was clearly described that gave me the whole picture of what the mountain looked like though I was not there. I can relate the reading through my own experience there in my hometown, Bukidnon. I myself experienced the magnificent feeling of being in the mountain. I always climb Mt. Pulog during Semana Santa, fasting, sacrificing, Praying and repenting to Almighty Father for all the sins I've committed in life. Though it is not as big as Mt Apo but reaching its top is somewhat like an achievement and oppurtunityfor me to take a look to some Places in Bukidnon and of course to see and witness the beauty of nature created by our almighty Father. In top, I can feel the very very fresh air that relaxes my entire body, the clouds that is almost reachable, the trees and some flowers that ceases my pain and sorrow. How I wish to stay there because there? there's always peace and silence that I really really wanted especially in times of difficulties....
In this coming Semana Santa, I still planning to climb Mt. Pulog hoping that through reaching it, I will be born again, painless and fresh and ready to start and live life to the fullest...

Personal Reaction

Saying " Thank you" is a sign of appreciation for an act given heartfully. Yet many people forgotten its value and instead judge a person based on what is visible to the eye. In the story, I felt disappointed on the part of the students, families and shoppers who were there degrading the scruffy old man because of the man's physical appearance. They were not aware that what they showed indicates how uneducated they are. why? because for me education and personality can be measured not on the knowledge per se but on one's behavior, how he manifests himself to diverse culture, how he acts or interacts accordingly, how he shows good values to others as he values himself. The problem with these "people" are they are too blind because of their education or status quo to the point of making a boundary that separates them from those who are less fortunate in life. That instead of helping the society through their education, wealth, influence, they even worsen the society using that boundary. That saying " thank you" develops a standard which must be addressed only to people with a high attainment in life, All I can say that instead of humility, they develop this certain kind of Pride having a certain qualifications and standards...I hope other people realize and change that kind of set up...I hope so...

Louis Armstrong - What a wonderful World music video

"The Difference between Possible and Impossible Lies in a Persons Determination"-Tommy Lacorda

It simply means that achieving something beyond usual is a choice which is determined not by circumstances but by one's own will. Impossibility arises when someone is aiming too high and viewed in one's perception that the assurances of reaching is below average. It all depends in one's guts and determination how he takes the risk and continue his mission or stick to what he believe that it is really impossible without even acting or trying. I guess, that's it, the only difference does not lies in the possibility or impossibility itself but in one's decision and determination whether or not to take the risk of trying.
These circumstances happen to me every now and then. That sometimes I feel the odds of achieving something because it was already in my mind set the impossibility of reaching. That sometimes I'm not growing nor learning because of the fear to dive in. It was later that I realized that I was wrong, absolutely wrong.
One experience...
I was an ordinary girl who lived in a remote place somewhere in Bukidnon. I haven't had a clue what was the world looked like outside Bukidnon. Illiterate in modernized gadgets, Knew nothing how the city looked like. I was 13 years old, an innocent girl who believed that mingling with the city people, studying in a big university, adapting to another cultures and beliefs were impossible for me to cope. As time fades, experiences gathered, knowledges acquired and parents inspired, I took the risk of exploring the different world far from my world, far from my belief and understanding, of all the tears invested I found myself growing and learning, and surviving to the world which I thought was impossible to reach. For some people they don't had a hard time adapting places to places but for me it was a big deal that later through determination, I found myself with them, mingling and laughing and sharing. I was so happy...Weird story but it was true how I viewed the world back then....

What a Wonderful World

Before hearing the music...This is the favorite song of my father. I was amazed how my father looked at life to its positive side despite of his big responsibilities having seven children in the family. My father is a good and responsible man, a man who never shows his real love to us, his children but never fails us to feel it. I love my father so much and I want him to know how I treasure his existence here on Earth. To my father, we, his children are the greatest thing that happen to him. Despite of his sufferings and sacrifices for us, he's still happy and contented and enjoys life and sing this song....What a wonderful world...

I hope I can inspire people to change their negative views in life about something or someone through this music...listen to it, open your heart and remember the happiest moment you spent with your father.....

Saving lives in the middle of Holocaust...
It's a noble act of a man who played a very crucial role to provide safety in the wilderness of human murder to the extent of putting his own life in danger. Tutsi Christians were degraded, discriminated and were systematically slaughtered by the Hutu who claimed Rwanda as Hutuland. Tutsi were regarded as cockroaches that must be killed. Despite this Rwandan Genocide, one man, with a heart that beat responsibly to needs of his people faced all the burdens, thus created miracle in safeguarding more or less 2000 Tutsi individuals.
This life threatening event caused so much traumatic experiences to the Tutsi people.This movie showed the injustice in the society wherein some races oppressed for personal interest. It portrayed how illegitimate the Hutu government was, Accusing the Tutsi for an irrational act against their government which was also part of their strategic plan to start and create conflict between the two races.But despite all the threats, it never dampened the desire of the Tutsi to spare all their lives and to conquer the Hutu. They did it.

(sigh)..What a cruel place to live in huh?..
This movie is the best movie I've watched because it entails the realities in our society wherein there's discrimination, isolation,degradation and deprivation of one's right to gain power, internal control and authority. Although obsolete right now. But even in this hopeless time, the spirit of brotherhood arise in each and everyone making things possible and free themselves from the oppressors. Helping each other is the only thing they hold in order to survive and they survived. The guts, wisdom,power, leadership, hope and cooperation makes the whole movie captivating,nurturing and amazing...